great!
i just got home apparently.
being "abandoned" by some bastard that has decided to go to DRAGONFLY despite agreeing to meet me.
(being abandoned makes me soun unwanted-which ireally wanted it to mean-)
that THING made me waste 50 odd minutes of my time sitting alone at some pathetic void deck .FEELING ALL SOOOO FORGOTTEN,wne i wasnt the mofo supposed to feel so,cuz i wasnt the one being DITCHED.
(you see the point,if you dont want want to meet then dont tell me and agree to it.and i was being nice as a FRIEND to put aside 2 hours-120mins- of my time inspite of the projects and essay i have on hands.and thankyou for PROVING TO ME how much im worth to you.which oh-so-happen-to-equavalent to 200++ buck liquor which a FREND opened at DRAGONFLY waiting for u to go over and JOIN him.)
and i was pissed cause YOU said i VOLUNTEERILY waited for you.(have u forgotten tt u MADE me wait saying tt u needed somone to talk to cuz u brokeup?)
AND YOU HUNG UP ON ME!
THATS LIKE TOTALLY TABOO!
-reason? you ARRIVED AT THE FUCK PLACE CALLED DRAGONFLY (and of course your expensive friends with the liquor thats worth more than me are there)-
ok
im nOW LABELLED as
- CRUDE
- unreasonable
- DEMANDING
- not understanding
- inhumane
- slutty
- ULTRA SPOILT
- shitty
thats so far wad im getting on sms...
yupp.no idea.but i was made to sound sooo FAULTY .depriving him cuz his day wasnt as positive.LALA.
he told me..."YOU DONT CLUB MEH? WHATS WRONG WITH CLUBBING?"
"i CLUB..BUT I DONOT MAKE MY FRIEND who hapen to have 7 chapter ytest and equiz tomorrow at 10am in the morning SIT AROUND SOME PATHETIC MOSQUITO BREEDING VOID DECK FOR 50+ minute alone in the middle of the night WHO IS APPARENTLY TRYING TO BE NICE AND PREPARED TO LEND A SHOULDER AND EARS TO YOU WHO JUST BROKE UP AND leave her there to make her way home while you EXCUSE yourself by COOKING UP SOME RUBBISH LIES TT SHE IS GIVING YOU INSUFFICIENT TRAVELLING TIME WHEN GETTING FORM ONE MRT STATION TO ANOTHER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT eg, YIOCHUKANG to KHATIB (which happens to be have the longest distaance apart if u are on the train) 15 mins is more than enough on an almost empty road at 2.30 am ++ at night.) REQUIRES LESS THAN 15 MINUTES 20 MINS AT MOST..." decided to come clean upon realising that im am oh-so-fucking-stubborn-spoilt-bitchy-irritating-unreasonable-inhumane-WOMAN he has met.
anyway,bet he is regretting already cuz i WHINED-NAGGED-
PESTERED-HARASSED him for quite sometime.
(oh if you happen to be reading this DONT FEEL PROUD,i aint over with being angry at you)
Labels: rants
@ 3:47 AM
@ 2:15 PM
met up with D.
he offered me 15o.he was fantastic.made me cum like 7 times.FUCK MAN 7 please!
nothing much to blog about.
NEED A MAN LIKE NOW....4.23am
(maybe should consider calling mcdelivery and answer the door in towel and drop it on purpose.
he might want to fuck me.)
@ 4:22 AM
went for sex appointment yesterday.
2oo more for the week.
RAHH.
zouk tonight,wearing green mini dress.
CATCH ME IF YOU CAN!(insert alot of laughs here!!!)
was supposed to have a 2nd appointment ytd,but he was jus simply too gross.
plueese,he stinks can.
and he claims that he is actually cute when he is looking alomostlike a NERD.
YUCK.
nerd doesn;t naturally equates to being CUTE.(GEEK in short)
i ran away in a cab.
HAHAH
I'M SOOO BAD.
and to make matter worst..he told me im WEIRD.
i think u are weirder!
MOFO.
-i miss you still,sitting on the swing makes me feel happy-
if im sad,u can find me at any swings.Labels: sex.money.clubs
@ 3:18 PM
well.lifes well as least NOT for the friendship chunk.
if my life was a cake,the friends chunk would be all soggy like a drowned rat,the sex part will be rather golden and crisp.
went out.it was cold war in class.we stood aloof ,significantly apart.
talk was little as very much avoided.
met up with some random guys from IRC,headed down to Sembawang Park.TALKED.SEXED.
it was in the car.just we left,a patrol car came.
"what happens if they sees us?"
"who cares?"
i was asked if i were attached,NO.
whether i was looking for a boyfriend,NO.
why not?LIFES GOOD AS IT IS.
i have got immeasurably projects and problems already.
-even the thought of making new friends sends shudders down my spine-
pocket 200.
tagg me if interested-Labels: sex.public.school.friends
@ 1:45 AM
why issit that every other soul in SINGAPORE attached other than me?
i felt so unwanted.
first,my bestfriend left me for a new found friend.
then im disowned by my ex-telling me im FAT.
LALA,
people out there if you happen to drop by here...
HAVE YOU THOUGHT OF HOW ANOTHER PARTY WOULD BE RATHER AFFECTED BY AN ACTION OR TWO OF YOURS?
eg,if you were to neglect your friend for a new found friend totally...how would your friend feel?
if you hPPEN TO BE IN HER SHOES?
FUCKED.i jus wanted so much to cheapen myelf,i sold my pride for 6oo.
how fun.
screwed up bad.
upcoming subject test.KILL ME.
buy me for 6oo.
i'm good.
@ 3:25 AM
turned 18 ytd,life sucked.no cake no nothing.returned to an empty house as usual.need a giuy so bad.REAL bad.
i dont know why my life is rather screwed.Aint very pretty to start with,not very well to do,and topped off with whole family being screwed.Mum's like so demanding,nope not on the acedemic side.but rather on the MONETARY side.YES fuck.i happen to be working and guess what,im working for my shopping allowance that you all (mum &dad) didnt provide for.i used to have an alloance of 70 when i was in secondary school and was left with 65 in poly and as the term startsit decrease to 60.and now for no apparent reason it dropped to 50.and mummyNOW THAT IM WORKING THEY MAKE ME PAY FOR EVERTHING ELSE..
- transport: totals up 97 bucks per month-that is the amount for concession for both bus and train-
- phonebills: about 100 ,now that ive cut down
- food: i'll just put aside that 5o for food.and being a glutton,5o is NEVER enough.100bucks here which divides into 25 per week.
- art materials: 20 per month?
- shopping: THE REST.
now lets count:
i happen to work on weekend and is paid 6/hr.my weekend starts on a friday.
friday: 7pm till 2am (6x7=42)
saturday:5pm till 2am(9x6=54)
sunday:5pm till 10pm(5x6=30)
totals: 42+54+30=126-perweek-
126x4=504
504-expenses(97+100+100+20)
=5o4-317
=183.
look people.an average dress at FOREVER 21 is like 53.i can get mayb 3 and be left with a little savings.and if that so happen that that month my wide social circle happens to be BIRTHDAY-less.which is alomost to the extent of being impossibly,birthday less.SLUT.
i want to be financially independent.but please,leave me some space. | Labels for this post:
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Labels: work.family.
@ 9:28 AM
YESTERDAY i HAD FUN with C,it was complete merriment in comparison to the previous month i frittered in wretchness.i was in a state of permanent penury-of SEX-rather-.since the end of my relationship with M.
(it wasnt very much of a relationship to start with,he was a fling,but slowly after nights of tedious workouts.I SWEAR HE IS LIKE SO NIFTY.he is the BEST i had so far.we developed feelings for each other.he left his girl,i left my guy.)
BACK to C.he collected me from school-see i used like COLLECTED i dint really regard me much as a human now-he was a ok looking army man, just that he looked really worn out.Being the usual me,we couldnt decide where to head to in his car.went to Turf city,to realise that the shops are closed rather early.we went on to Holland V,cause of a sudden compulsion for CARAMEL ice cream.NO PARKING. so we left.NEEDING to get to the hush side of life,i ,THE BITCH,headed towards ECP.even though there was a slight drizzle,sitting in the bench staring at the sea and listening to the waves' ceaseless slaps on the shore.it makes me happy.
YOU see ...you put a girl,me and a guy on a bench on a lonely and rather secluded area,the bitch could use a little cuddle.with little cuddles comes pecks and nibbles.it was then i realised that he was rather easy to triumph over.it was then when i took things in my hands and let my hands stray.i dint wanted to stay in theopen,headed back the car, drove down a long stretch,made him stop and made him hard.he wanted me bad.
Got a room,LICKED.BJ.FINGERED.SEX-ed.BATHED and LEFT.
left love bites on him.he sent me home.
im satisfied~
-looking forward to meeting him again,but i still prefer M -
Bitch gg on 18
M is 25
C is 33
Labels: SEX-ed.hotel.
@ 2:26 AM
hey.im starting to blog bout my sex life.
shall update photos if i have.
hot hot me-
@ 12:38 AM
i love me
@ 12:30 AM
BITCH with the capital B :D