
I NEED YOU
Knowing from the start you werent a reticent guy to start with,maybe hooking up with you in the club was a blunder,however,it will be a goof that I would put a halt to-if there was a rewind,I would still want to know you. On no account,would I have expect that you happen to be emotionally involved elsewhere, and u just so happen to be so ingenuous about your status.i saw u as a friend,but the attention and all else that you gave me in the first week got the better of my heart.super-frequent smses,heartwarming things that you say,all the sweet goodnights that you bide.well.it landed myself into some shitty situation.so screwed la,knowing that your are attached doesn’t stop me from looking at you from afar,trying to get close to you was naturally.you dint reject my attention either.thank you for all that.thank you for spending the night with me,though to you it maybe it was noted as having sex,just plain casual sex.i see it differently.but its fine.u told me days later that u actually felt guilty doing so,in the midst of the session because of your attached status.it totally left me feelin as if I was in the dumps,I don’t think u people out there might understand,but yup,it was THAT bad.i see you around in school,waiting up late at night to talk to you,messaging you whole day,even if its jus waiting by my lappy,hoping to see that pink window pop up at the bottom right corner,showing your name.it makes me happy.im happy and that’s important.my instincts tell me that you see me more than a friend,but as of how accurate it is,I don’t know.(and u jus popped up the conversation window,and im a happy girl-see! I’d rather skip club to talk to you) u always starts the conversation,u message me too,u care.i saw you around in school,you will say hi.i look forward to gg to school,so as to see you.i dress up more for you,I go for lessons for you.basically,my life now revolve around you.hope it will last.need that motivation to keep me going.and yes,people,dont tell me im dumb.i cannot help it too!
And BESTIE I know you are reading this!
@ 11:51 PM